So I am pretty sure by now, everyone in the whole entire Krew knows whats going on. So now I am gonna just share how I feel and how I am dealing with all of this.
I was just scrolling through my timeline during my lunch period in school. I then came upon an article titled “EDM Superstars Krewella Mired In Legal Mess Involving DJ’s Newfound Sobriety”. Of course me being me, I was curious about what this article was talking about. I clicked on it and I read the whole entire thing. I can tell you now that I felt just beyond shocked and surprised. It was definitely something that hit me hard like a huge double decker bus; just plain taking every ounce of feeling and emotion of out me, leaving me speechless and dumbfounded. At first, I wanted to cry at the moment. But I couldn’t since I just didn’t believe anything that I read! I had no idea how to take in the news. I just couldn’t even believe it was real! It all seriously felt so unreal to me. I was just like “This can’t be happening. This has to be a joke or something!” I was in such disbelief about everything I saw within the articles I read and the tweets I saw during that lunch period when I found out. I told my friends who knew how I was with Krewella. And they just said “Oh my god that’s terrible”, “Wow, you’re overreacting”, “That’s not even a big deal”, and “Are you serious? I thought this day would never come! This is so sad, Emily”. Some of the things that were told to my face hurt me so much. Like yeah I know this may not be a huge deal for you and you think this is a minor conflict in life. But hey, in my eyes and my point of view, this is literally a nightmare and a crisis that is actually coming true to life and is a reality. And then the other things that were told to me by my friends literally made me happy knowing that some of people actually care and want to show a little sympathy. Those are some true friends right there.
I then spent the whole entire school day just in the hugest state of shock ever! I couldn’t pay attention in class. There was literally just no way of me being able to fully concentrate on my school work. I just wanted to hide in the bathroom and sit there on my phone trying to see what is happening with all of this. I was constantly on my phone in class literally hiding it under my desk and on my lap and then taking it out onto the desk so I could read everything and then hiding it once again. Literally, that was all I did the whole school day in every class. I was even walking through the hallways in between class periods typing tweets and shit like that. I wasn’t even watching where I was walking. At that point, I honestly did not care about anything else happening and taking place around me. I just wanted to concentrate on Krewella and everything that was happening online. I know it is bad to bring my full attention to social media than to the real world. But hey, I fucking couldn’t help myself!
I went home and FaceTime my friend Sam off of Twitter and we were just endlessly discussing this whole thing. I couldn’t even speak properly to her about this: just kept stuttering because I was just beyond speechless. I read more articles saying all different kinds of things and stories and theories. Since so many different things were being claimed, I had no idea what the fuck to believe at all. I was just like “Fuck it, everything being said from any articles or people is just not real or the truth at all”. Even deep down in my heart I knew some of that shit isn’t true at all! Like some blogs said that Jahan and Yasmine kicked him out just to get more of the money.
Like since when in life was Krewella about money. I know for a fact from when I met them, talked to them in person and online, saw them perform live, etc., that they are not like that at all. They are truly genuine people with such warm-hearted, down the earth, and golden souls. They are taking part in Krewella as one big project because they absolutely love and enjoy everything they do. They love and have fun with every experience they have been through during this whole musical journey they have been on. And plus I know they would never let something as stupid as money ruin shit. I believed that none of these blogs or authors knew the full, true story.
So I just told myself that I have to wait for Yasmine, Jahan, or Kris to address the real facts and story. Because they were the only people in this world that knew the real shit that was going on. So everything they would say or address would be something that I saw as the truth in my eyes. From now on, I am just gonna anxiously wait for any statements addressed by any three of them.
When Jahan and Yasmine posted on tumblr, I felt secure with what they said and of course i believed them. And then Yasmine posted on tumblr as well. I dmed her saying a very short version of this tumblr post and then she replied. I felt the love from that. I could tell that this definitely hit them hard too just like all of us.
One thing out of this that I do love is that everyone is just going through this as one united family. “If we go down, we all go down together”. If someone ever feels like alone or lost, they have to remember that there are many, many other people feeling the same way they do. I know for a fact that I don’t feel alone with this. We all are gonna get through this together as one. And honestly all we can do it just, stop assuming shit because that will make things worst, send an endless supply of love, devotion, and support to them because that’s what they really need the most right now, and just to stay positive because everything happens for a reason. I know for a lot of us its so hard and difficult to even try to accept the fact that this is all real, that this is all happening, that this is all reality. And we also have to be strong. Strong because we just have to be and because we have the be the wall of strong love and support for them to lean on. Sadly, yeah this stuff is legit. I know that this is something so unreal to the point where you wished this wasn’t real. I know that this might be something that you might have never imagined happening. But I know that we can all get through this though. I would say more but I don’t want to let you sit here for a while reading every thought I have to say. Love every single one of you guys.
Much love, Emily (PhillyKrew)